Do you like me? never mind...

just take a second and think about how many people you well and truly hate. Now think why? bets are, a lot of those people who you hate, or, are even "enemies" with, you can't even remember the reason why you hated them in the first place. you 'just do'. now tell me, does that sound like a good reason to you? everyone has hated some one in their life; i know i have hated people before, maybe not even for a good reason! some of those times  i was even the one who started it off; and only hate the person purely on the bounds that they hate me. which may sound fair to some of you, why should i like someone who doesn't even like me? but honestly, i just don't feel good having so much hatred inside me, it's much nicer just to let things go. now i'm not saying you just forgive the person if they've done something terrible, all i'm saying is just don't let it rule your life. whether that means you have to say sorry, make it up to the person, or even just forget about them completely! you never know, the person you're in a feud with might be a really nice person, you just never saw it through all the hatred. however, if they've hurt you it's a different story than a simple sorry, but you know what? it's no good just holding onto all the pain and tears that person's caused you! you may see them around sometimes, and you might even hate them so much that their mere presence annoys you, but I'll tell you this, you getting wound up is just pure entertainment for them! if you talk about them, you're just undoing the stitches, causing more hurt for yourself than necessary, and i know this sort of pain usually comes from relationships. emotions suck, but we're all still learning, from the day we're born to the day we die; we will never know everything, but you'll get the most out of life if you just keep moving on, re-living emotions just holds you back when there could be a whole new world just around the corner!  i've seen friends get hung up on people they hate, but those people have moved on, and like i said, the hatred is holding them back and sometimes even getting to them and making them stressed and angry. now i know you might even think me pathetic for forgiving people so easily, but i dont want to say i hate so many people, especially when i dont even know them well enough. i dont like it when people hate me without bothering to get to know me first, so why should i do that to others? i've seen so much hatred already, and i'm already 15, i know what it can do to people and it's much better to move on and be happy. some people seek revenge, but people, like my mother, can stay strong for themselves and others and just move on and forget about the people they hate and find that happiness, is only a couple steps away. If you're one of those people who struggle to forgive, too hurt or caught up by what's happened, then it's fine, as long as you're in control of your emotions. after going through pain, you need to moan, complain and even cry just to get it out of your system, but don't prolong it, it doesn't help you get over it, it just brings back memories that aren't wanted nor needed! and, well, if all else fails, just think about hitler, everyone hates him, so at least you're not alone in your hatred! ciao.

complications

so i feel as though i'm getting quite used to this whole thing, i've read other peoples, and i still dont get it, but i have fun typing and complaining, so i'll just stick to what i'm used too! now dont get me wrong, i may sound as if i think there is alot wrong with the world (which there is) but i'm really not a negative person, so you never know, one of these days i might just post a very positive blog, but till then, i just want to talk about, well anything else. everywhere i look at the moment everyone seems quite miserable and generally stressed, god knows what about, but everyone seems to be having insane mood swings and it's so tiring to keep up with! people need to learn to let go, you know, half way through work or just when you get plain bored do something fun. go outside, go outside with your pet (well if you have one) or even just turn up the music in your room and just. go. crazy. life's all about balance, and although there are some complications, people really need to learn to just let go every now and then and just do something for them, no one else! especially those who go out of the way to cheer others up, just think, when was the last time you smiled for real? or laughed so hard your sides hurt? i know all this stuff sounds childish or even ridiculous, but life isn't all hard work. sure, people loose balance sometimes and have too much work, or too much fun. i personally know i spend waay too much time on the internet rather than doing things that i really ought to do, but hey, no one's perfect right? i may be chatting on a bit, but i just want to get across that out of all the other blogs i've been through there are a lot of hard workers, people who document daily and do so much, or even those i see walking around looking like they haven't slept in weeks, you need to just let go of the stress and hard work for an hour or so and freak out. but for those of you who have no spare time during the week...

sorry, it's just not me

now, i hate to sound selfish, and even a little strange, but i hate saying sorry, therefore, i wish i was a guy. well, not quite, but i wish girls were more like them, most girls love being drama queens and it takes them forever to get over the smallest thing! plus they get everyone involved, which is sooo not cool. but hey, no one said being a girl was easy! but saying sorry (even when i'm in the wrong) is just not me. i do apologise, but to be honest, when i know i'm in the wrong and come up with a really good apology, people just throw it back in my face, so why bother in the first place? girls are so temperamental i actually feel sorry for guys who have to put up with them! although i'm sure we calm with age;) 

we've all had these moments...

i hate to toot my own horn, but i am actually right most of the  time, so you could say i'm not very good at having to say sorry, now i know that sounds like i'm a total know it all, but i'm not, it's usually over boys where needing to know comes in, and i know a rotten egg when i see the, it's just a shame they have such a good disguise! i'm sure i'll get so much better at apologies as i make more and more mistakes, but i still stand by what i said; it has got to be far easier being a guy, buy a girl flowers, or their favourite sweets and you can consider yourself in the clear! now, i know girls are easily annoyed, and scream for next to no reason, but atleast we're easily over it aswell, and if you're married, you must have it all sussed out! but for now, personally, i'm still learning how to do those awkward apologies and horrendous arguments, i've succeeded a few, and i hope, if you're still reading with me, that you figure it out soon- arguments are not worth a good friend. love to hear what you think in the comments!

best friends now-a-days...

have you ever had a day where you wonder why your best friend IS your bestfriend? I have. sometimes we are complete opposites, she likes the yolk of the egg whilst i hate it, sounds odd just an example, right? yet I still don't understand exactly what makes her the best, why is she better than all my other friends? now if any of you lot have a best friend, you'd understand what i mean, you will have arguments, she will be a bitch, yet so will you, even guys have this issue with their mates. but all i want to know, is what makes our best friends better. She may have the same humour as you, but so do the rest of your friends... maybe you have the same likes and dislikes, but as i've said, there are always opposites aswell. i think it's more than just one reason, if it was only one reason, that wouldn't really be the best now would it? other friends, yeah they'll have alot of these qualities, but your best friend has the most of them, they end up being such a big part of your life i'm pretty sure the whole thing actually messes with your head, so much so they loose the ability to insult you, if they call you a name you shrug it off and call them something worse. however they gain the power to hurt you big time, they know all your secrets, you can't ever let them go since they know far too much about you, but maybe that's what makes them the best, just the fact that you can trust a person enough not to tell a soul about anything.  she has lived every memory with you, and if she hasnt, she's by far been the first person you tell about all the mad stuff going on in your own little upsidedown world. that person knows everything about you, she is like a diary, or even your living blog. If you don't remember what happened that time you got drunk, or when you went out with that very gross guys last year; your best friend is the one who remembers it all too well. she wont ever let you forget them either!  but then again, if you're anything like me, you might just be best friends because no one else is crazy enough to put up with you.

being a teenager confuses me, maybe that's why i'm awkward?

since I really can't sleep, I think I'll just sit here and share, since I feel as though I have a lot to share on behalf of all teenagers who don't fancy going out and getting drunk on a Saturday night, instead I sat in and watched tv with my family with a lovely kfc takeaway, which honestly is super rare! now i know you people of the internet are probably VERY uninterested in my life and how it's going, but I'm interested in everyone else's! I'd love to know I'm not the only teen who doesn't do much typical teenager stuff! but trust me, i really do want to know, what the massive deal is about going out and doing "crazy shit" meaning vandalism, being extremely annoying and frankly it's not even that fun since you throw up after half an hour of it! many people in my class are all over it, having house parties, getting with lads, and some of them even go as far as smoking, bearing in mind i am only 15, that really sucks. want to know how i spent my Saturday? well personally, i made an art smock and painted a not-so-good picture of a boat in the sunset. feel like a bit of a failure in this teenage mad world we're living in today, but ah well, i guess some people could even look at me as the success, because trust me, we've all been through it and being a teenager is ridiculously stressful, there's pressure everywhere you turn, with relationships, school and even families! want to know the secret of getting by? just smile. everything seems easier when you're happy, trust me! but just a little tip, it your parents are coming home and you've turned the living room upside down, clean it, or get out of the house before they get in, that puts them in a stormy mood for sure!;)

robots,clones or just plain sheep...

who's to say THIS is what guys should wear? 

we all get told about life, how to live it and what's important. No matter how much we think we're all different we're too alike. think about it, teenagers at the moment are all going around talking about being individuals, but I see them all walking down the street wearing the same chinos, hats and even rucksacks are back in fashion with them, all trying to be 'indie' or individual, but none of them are truly being them selves, all I'm wondering is how long I really have to wait till everyone else realises this, and i get to see everyone's true colours. I know I may fall victim of this thing we call "fashion" but who's to say what's cool to wear and what isn't? i've got to say, i'm game for the guy who doesn't go with the crowds. they all talk the same, look the same and even, by my age, have all mastered the way they think they should charm a girl. now, i personally think i am lucky to have such an odd taste in boys that i dont fall for the typically hot, easy to talk to guy, i like those who hide in the shadows, feel awkward, yet they are always the ones with the cutest eyes and smile. simply because they hardly ever show them pearly whites! to me, those quiet nice guys are the ones worth all my efforts, not the ones who think they can get every girl and any girl. The guys who dont know how, they're worth it. you know, you hear alot of girls at my age, ripe old 15, saying how badly they want to get out of school ,move out and even get a perfect boyfriend, but they dont care abut grades, want to drop out of school and go for the jerks who are either rich or are "HOT". they are the girls who are blinded, and honestly i pitty them. i mean i've been single for nearly a year now, although i'm not quite sure whether that's because i'm unfortunate looking, or just too picky and awkward! but i'm still not caving in to the'players' or going after guys i've seen hurt people! if you're still reading this, i'd love to tell you that they're is a nice guy out there for everyone, or even that i've got one in my grasp, but honestly, those kind of guys, unlike my swagger jagger photo, are worth the search and wait.